I felt complicit as I watched football this past weekend. I’ve seen the science regarding concussions and CTE. The link is real. Yet, I didn’t turn away. In fact, I became a typically obsessed fan who was emotionally tied to the Seahawks game as they lost to the Broncos. But when the game was over, I again worried about the health of the players. Am I supporting their deteriorating health? Do my dollars invested create more incentive to cover up the science? I worry about what this all means. I remain conflicted.
I can’t help but think opening night of any sport tells us how good the coaches really are. Game one tells me a ton about the team’s preparedness and their energy tells me how far they could go this year. I am attracted to the strategy of the game, the drama as it plays out and the differences in leadership on each team. It matters to me to see how a player or a coach reacts to a situation, to see them in real time go through the emotions we all have during the course of our daily lives.
As I’ve said before, I am always willing to reconsider my position and my position in this case is incredibly fluid. Just as the teams who took the field this weekend do not know the outcome of their season, I’m interested to see where I will land on this in the coming months.